Friday, January 14, 2011
Where is it? Is it happy?
I wouldn*t know. I can*t seem to find it.
But surely it*s there. Everyone else has theirs.
I can*t feel it. I can*t see it. I can*t hear it anymore. I can*t remember what it felt like.
Where could it have gone? It*s impossible for it to just disappear.
Is it? Can you find it? It has to be gone. Otherwise I would be able to find it.
I*m not sure where to look. I got so used to it being there that I forgot to remember.
I feel like giving up now. How can we find it if we don*t know where to look?
But surely we can*t give up. That would be depressing if we lost it permanently.
I don*t think it would. It might make things a LOT less complicated. We wouldn*t have to worry.
If we found it though; we could lock it away where no one else could find it. It is so precious. We can*t leave it out there alone.
That*s what anyone else would do. Why can*t we just do what*s easy?
Because it means so much to us. I know that it can be full of sorrow; but there is so much joy found in it too.
That*s just it. How will we know if it still has any joy left in it? We might have used it all up.
I don*t know. But remember how much joy there was before we lost it? Perhaps we can replenish it.
Yes. Yes I do remember that. But where could we go? Who would know so much about something like this to be able to help with that?
I just...I just don*t know. There must be something we can do. I don*t like being without it. It*s uncomfortable.
I know. Me too. We can acclimate. It*s part of our survival instinct right? I know we can do this.
It will be hard though. Maybe we should find it and let someone else take care of it. That way we wouldn*t have to worry.
Sigh. I don*t think you are understanding. It was our burden to bear. We are the caretakers and we lost it. IF we are able to find it then we would have to guard it lock and key. We can*t lose it so easily again. It belongs to a very important person. No one else can have it. It*s just not meant to be stretched out between more than one person. We*ve failed.
It*s just not there anymore. How could this have happened?