Like Emma

Since it has been so long, I decided to start my dear readers thinking. I would like to compare my life to Emma Woodhouse's. Think for a moment.

Emma Woodhouse and me. Well it's a stretch. I am not quite so selfish (a little bit I'll grant you) and I'm not nearly so great at matchmaking (but we all know she only had one lucky shot). But I said compare to her life. So let's do that.

I live comfortably in a large-ish home (it feels large to me anyway compared to the small apartment I live in now). My family is by no means wealthy but we certainly make do. I have lots of dear friends to surround me. Of course Emma's prominent friends are Miss Smith, Mrs. Weston, and....Mr. Knightley (oohs and ahhs).

Oh Mr. Knightley (oohs and ahhs). We all have one of these in our lives at one point or another. That dear friend that is so much more than dear. How does he put it?

"Emma! You want our friendship to remain the same as it has always been, but I cannot desire that... I do not wish to call you my friend because I hope to call you something infinitely more dear."

WELL. What girl wouldn't like to hear that from Mr. Knightley? I'd swoon.

To the point. There have been Mr. Knightley's in my life and I have never taken it on myself to "succeed at winning" them. I always have a menagerie of friends acting as a support system (more like a wrecking ball that I am clinging to as it swings crazily) informing me in the ways of pushing him out of the friend zone.

I have no finesse in the ways of catching men. In fact I'm quite clumsy. I usually end up scaring off the interesting ones and attracting the too-interesting ones. So as you might guess I'm quite wary when told to pull a "Mr. Knightley." You are QUITE right.

Well, to Mr. Knightley, beware. It may be a disaster or it may be a monumental event.

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Nuff Said

There's a lot to be said for a girl who loves life and lives it so much that she doesn't have time to write in her blog.

Yep.

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A bigger view

Sometimes, especially for  short  people, seeing gets a little rough in certain situations.

In my life this is no different. Many times I have had to stretch to the very limit of my 5' 3" (on my tippy tippy top toes...) and other times I have needed assistance from those fortunate souls in the taller species of human.

Well it just so happens that at a particularly enthralling moment I needed to be rid of a large view-blocker that had stationed himself quite staunchly in front of me.

I pushed!!

I shoved.

I SCREAMED!

I KICKED.

And I even BIT him.

No luck. Well this is a problem. I can't get anywhere or see anything but this blockhead in front of me.

Hmmm...

So I decided to just disappear him. Rather difficult if you ask me and seeing as to how BIG this guy is it will have to be an excessively LARGE space.

It takes a bit of time and concentration with all the galaxies of my imagination but it finally does the trick. He will probably miss out on this amazing view since he is no longer present.

His destination

Poor guy. Should've just moved.

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Weekless

As the time approaches that we commemorate the death, atonement, and resurrection of our Savior Jesus Christ and having just finished with the uplifting words in General Conference (1), I have been super reflective (a lot like a mirror). My buddy Ted and I decided that we were going to make this week meaningful.

A lot like Lent...but not really...we are going to give up the world for a week and focus on the Savior. We decided some parameters and lists of "do"s and "do not"s.

Do NOT

• Get on facebook (that evil social media that hooks you and drags you in...)
• Get on Pinterest (this one will require cold turkey withdrawal for me...and it might get ugly)
• Listen to modern worldly music
• Read secular books
• Watch tv or movies
• Riding his scooter (this was his major sacrifice and I've got the keys...scooter ride anyone??)

DO

• Homework
• Listen to uplifting, spiritual things
• Read our scriptures with an emphasis on the Savior's last week
• Other constructive, productive activities that are wholesome

Now this will be an interesting week. I fully intend to do my best to NOT do the do NOT's and DO do the DOs. I hope that this will be an even more reflective time, considering the everlasting sacrifice my Savior made for me. There is much for me to learn.

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Sleeping habits

I've been noticing a few things upon waking to the sunshiney world morning after morning. Things that I must do in my sleep but of course am unaware of such actions as I am asleep. Thus I can only make guesses from information gathered after rising from slumber.

I rotate clockwise. 

(I basically unravel all my sheets in one direction and send them plummeting to the ground)

I switch places with my body pillow. 

(I wake up on the other side of my body pillow than originally arranged)

I somehow push the mattress away from the wall. 

(when making my bed faithfully every morning I have to push it back up to the wall so my pillows don't disappear into the black hole behind my bed)

I pretend to eat suckers. 

(Carrie, my roommate, tells me that she hears noises that sound like I'm sucking on a sucker or eating quite noisily)

I write music in my dreams and hum it to Carrie.

(Pretty self-explanatory...)

I sometimes remove items from about my person. 

(nothing scandalous, things like earplugs, socks, etc)

I'm a really light sleeper and always have been. All my roommates, siblings and most especially my lovely mother can attest to this. 

It's a wonder I can do all these without waking myself up. 

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The Path Ahead

I don't pretend to be a good writer. I just try to make things interesting once in awhile and if it suits me, I share the thoughts and feelings inside me. Feeling very pensive on this fine Sunday morning, this is one of those times.

Sometimes in life the path ahead is unclear to me. Things that happen along the way make me pause and overthink all sorts of nasty thoughts.

The destination is clear.

But there are times when the path has been overgrown by a thicket of doubt or a tree has fallen in front of me that takes much effort and pain to clear.

Since General Conference (2) is coming up this next weekend, I have been pondering a lot of things in my life. God has promised me so many great blessings and given me many blessings that I have done my best to appreciate. But what an impatient creature I am. I want these blessings now. I have not the patience it requires. Because of this impatience...I falter. I stumble. I doubt and fear what is ahead. That maybe I'm not going to receive those blessings after all. 

But God is great. There is no one more trustworthy than God. It is my weakness that bars the way. But it is through His strength that I will overcome.

I may not know my pathway's journey ahead but I do know that God knows it. He is the Master who loves me and will lead me through all that I may encounter. He knows and understands my pain and in Him will I trust. 

D&C 24:8

"These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation; but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world." -John 16:33

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Trains are mean

Train wrecks. Nasty business.

BIG TRAIN. little me.

I never know if I'll get run over entirely or just knocked out of the way. Terribly unavoidable either way. 

If I knew how to walk through life without following the tracks then I might not get hit so often. Or at all really. No matter. 

Being hit by trains all through life never killed anyone. Well...until it did.

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